My dramatic life!!
It's been awhile since I've blogged it's so dumb that the only time I want to blog is when I feel like my world is upside down. I always have these days where I cannot think about anything but what's going on in my life and I really can't think right now so I decided to just blog my life away on my lunch break!!...
HOI.. I honestly cannot complain life is going good but it's so sad that ever since I've moved to Utah all the friendships I've had with people just went bad. When we first moved here we always hung out with my cousin and her husband ( no names). We did everything together! it was so fun to hang out with another couple and to do things together all the time. I don't know what it is but we are always friends with people who are going thru a life crisis. My cousin and her husband were having some major marital problems and they were at there very lowest. People would talk about them and make jokes about what was going on with them but we didn't care it wasn't our business what was going on with them. We were friends and all my husband and I cared about was being there when they most needed us. Things started to look up for them and of course they burned us! My cousin showed up at my apartment with some other girls and started some major drama!!... We moved out of West Valley cause I just felt like the situation would just get worst but I have forgiven her and we are trying fix our friendship again.
We moved to Rose Park and let me just say we were very careful about letting just anyone into lives again. Until I met my cousin and her husband in our ward. It was nice to hangout again and finally find someone my husband clicked with so much. I think we clicked with him more then my cousin lol that's the honest truth she was something else and we always felt sorry for him cause she was such a jerk!. Well another crisis and they split up (which honestly I think it was for the best). He was always at my house! He was practically my brother! I felt comfortable with him around and I was fine that he and my husband hung out he is a good guy. While he was going thru the worst time of his life we always did things with him because duh that's what friends do. While this was all going on my cousin and one of my closest friends was going thru her own thing. She was at that time of her life where she was trying to figure what to do. She was staying with me for a month and since we were all at the house I would force her to come with us 3 cause I didn't want to be with the 2 boys by myself. Sometimes they were too much to handle I felt like a babysitter!! My husband was already telling me they would be perfect together. I was getting mad at him cause technically he was still married so I told my husband to calm down and wait till he is officially divorced. So we would do things together it was fun! We knew both of them individually and they both know our humor they are both very funny people. It was so fun to do things together and yeah I think we saw a relationship starting to develop. I didn't want anything to happen under my roof and of course I didn't her parents thinking I'm crazy to hook her up with someone married. So I talked to her about it and things just went down hill. I honestly was just trying to look out and my husband got mad about something she did and went off at her cause he didn't want him to be stuck with someone who treated him bad like my other cousin his wife at the time.
My husband said some stupid things like don't treat him like his first wife! You are just like her and whole bunch of things cause he was looking out for him. Hoi when he finally showed me the text I wanted the whole thing to just calm down before I address it. Well that didn't happen it went from bad to worst!! She had to get her brothers involved and he (our friend) was calling us crying telling us to come and say sorry. I was just like really? here we go again!!. I just couldn't believe that my own cousin would have people looking for my husband and not only that they were gonna shoot up our house. I was so hurt about the whole thing it still kind of hurts that it would come to that. Anyways we went to resolve the whole issue and it came down too my cousin saying that she couldn't believe that I would pick my husband over her and that she knew me first which is true but I told her she wouldn't understand till she's married she also told me that it was none of my business if they are together or not .She was right it wasn't my business I was just looking out.... We settled the issue but really I just felt hurt by both of them so my husband and I just decided to just distance ourselves from them and from anyone really. I was tired and I was done with having drama!. Well during our break he was divorced and they got engaged :) well you know what happened next... We got our invite to the wedding!!
My cousin and I were good terms but I just told her I didn't want to come to the wedding cause I didn't feel right being there. Especially with all the boys there that she told to look for my husband it would be just very uncomfortable. Friday night the night of the dance I just got out the hospital and I wanted to go support our service missionaries who was leaving so we went to the dance. While at the dance I couldn't stop thinking about my cousin and about how bad I wanted to be there for her. So even with everything that happened we went to the dance my heart wanted to explode! I was so happy for her and for him too.. I still couldn't believe that they were getting married. We said hi and then we had to leave cause I was in pain again!!.. I didn't make to the wedding but I just can't stop thinking about everything. Everyone is always asking me if I hooked them up and I always say no because it doesn't feel that way. My cousin and I have many crazy memories together and I hope that one day she will understand where I was coming from. I hope she loves her husband the way I love mines and that no one except for God will be able to stop me from loving him.
Even though I just practically put all my business out there for everyone to read it wasn't to bring up my dramatic life but to just say how crazy life can be!.. It was also something that weighed heavy on my heart and something I needed to say. I can sit here and say that I just attract the weirdest friends but at the same time I think everything happens for a reason. I'm sitting here at work crying cause it's annoying the hell out of me... Now that I think of it the whole thing that happened in West Valley happened for a reason! So that I could move to Rose Park meet my cousin and her husband there and I guess introduce my cousin to her now husband. I'm so emotional right now because I remember sitting in my living room with my cousin making goals hers was to be married in 2013 and mines was to be pregnant. She is now married as of Saturday and now I'm waiting to be pregnant lol.... I guess things do happen for a reason! This better be my year lol...
HOI.. I honestly cannot complain life is going good but it's so sad that ever since I've moved to Utah all the friendships I've had with people just went bad. When we first moved here we always hung out with my cousin and her husband ( no names). We did everything together! it was so fun to hang out with another couple and to do things together all the time. I don't know what it is but we are always friends with people who are going thru a life crisis. My cousin and her husband were having some major marital problems and they were at there very lowest. People would talk about them and make jokes about what was going on with them but we didn't care it wasn't our business what was going on with them. We were friends and all my husband and I cared about was being there when they most needed us. Things started to look up for them and of course they burned us! My cousin showed up at my apartment with some other girls and started some major drama!!... We moved out of West Valley cause I just felt like the situation would just get worst but I have forgiven her and we are trying fix our friendship again.
We moved to Rose Park and let me just say we were very careful about letting just anyone into lives again. Until I met my cousin and her husband in our ward. It was nice to hangout again and finally find someone my husband clicked with so much. I think we clicked with him more then my cousin lol that's the honest truth she was something else and we always felt sorry for him cause she was such a jerk!. Well another crisis and they split up (which honestly I think it was for the best). He was always at my house! He was practically my brother! I felt comfortable with him around and I was fine that he and my husband hung out he is a good guy. While he was going thru the worst time of his life we always did things with him because duh that's what friends do. While this was all going on my cousin and one of my closest friends was going thru her own thing. She was at that time of her life where she was trying to figure what to do. She was staying with me for a month and since we were all at the house I would force her to come with us 3 cause I didn't want to be with the 2 boys by myself. Sometimes they were too much to handle I felt like a babysitter!! My husband was already telling me they would be perfect together. I was getting mad at him cause technically he was still married so I told my husband to calm down and wait till he is officially divorced. So we would do things together it was fun! We knew both of them individually and they both know our humor they are both very funny people. It was so fun to do things together and yeah I think we saw a relationship starting to develop. I didn't want anything to happen under my roof and of course I didn't her parents thinking I'm crazy to hook her up with someone married. So I talked to her about it and things just went down hill. I honestly was just trying to look out and my husband got mad about something she did and went off at her cause he didn't want him to be stuck with someone who treated him bad like my other cousin his wife at the time.
My husband said some stupid things like don't treat him like his first wife! You are just like her and whole bunch of things cause he was looking out for him. Hoi when he finally showed me the text I wanted the whole thing to just calm down before I address it. Well that didn't happen it went from bad to worst!! She had to get her brothers involved and he (our friend) was calling us crying telling us to come and say sorry. I was just like really? here we go again!!. I just couldn't believe that my own cousin would have people looking for my husband and not only that they were gonna shoot up our house. I was so hurt about the whole thing it still kind of hurts that it would come to that. Anyways we went to resolve the whole issue and it came down too my cousin saying that she couldn't believe that I would pick my husband over her and that she knew me first which is true but I told her she wouldn't understand till she's married she also told me that it was none of my business if they are together or not .She was right it wasn't my business I was just looking out.... We settled the issue but really I just felt hurt by both of them so my husband and I just decided to just distance ourselves from them and from anyone really. I was tired and I was done with having drama!. Well during our break he was divorced and they got engaged :) well you know what happened next... We got our invite to the wedding!!
My cousin and I were good terms but I just told her I didn't want to come to the wedding cause I didn't feel right being there. Especially with all the boys there that she told to look for my husband it would be just very uncomfortable. Friday night the night of the dance I just got out the hospital and I wanted to go support our service missionaries who was leaving so we went to the dance. While at the dance I couldn't stop thinking about my cousin and about how bad I wanted to be there for her. So even with everything that happened we went to the dance my heart wanted to explode! I was so happy for her and for him too.. I still couldn't believe that they were getting married. We said hi and then we had to leave cause I was in pain again!!.. I didn't make to the wedding but I just can't stop thinking about everything. Everyone is always asking me if I hooked them up and I always say no because it doesn't feel that way. My cousin and I have many crazy memories together and I hope that one day she will understand where I was coming from. I hope she loves her husband the way I love mines and that no one except for God will be able to stop me from loving him.
Even though I just practically put all my business out there for everyone to read it wasn't to bring up my dramatic life but to just say how crazy life can be!.. It was also something that weighed heavy on my heart and something I needed to say. I can sit here and say that I just attract the weirdest friends but at the same time I think everything happens for a reason. I'm sitting here at work crying cause it's annoying the hell out of me... Now that I think of it the whole thing that happened in West Valley happened for a reason! So that I could move to Rose Park meet my cousin and her husband there and I guess introduce my cousin to her now husband. I'm so emotional right now because I remember sitting in my living room with my cousin making goals hers was to be married in 2013 and mines was to be pregnant. She is now married as of Saturday and now I'm waiting to be pregnant lol.... I guess things do happen for a reason! This better be my year lol...
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