Grateful Heart
Do you ever listen to music and it makes you feel some sort of way? Well music has that affect on me when I hear church songs I feel so peaceful and feel like I have no problems in the world. Tonight we were able to make it to the temple with our youth. I loved every minute of it I'm starting to get into the groove with our new area, new everything.
We just recently had general conference and it was exactly what I needed I feel rejuvenated and awake. This general conference I had a wonderful experience. I fell asleep during conference (I know nothing to brag about lol) but I had such a wonderful dream. My grandma Mafi came to me in my dream and I hugged her it felt so real I thought I died or something lol. It was so nice to feel her and see her I really needed to see her. My grandmother passed away from Cancer and the summer before she passed away before her final days. I spent the entire summer taking care of her I can remember my bed right in her room. People started to come visit her and spend time with her. I helped her with whatever she needed. I remember every night before she slept I would comb her hair and braid it for her. I would want to cry cause a lot of her hair would fall out she saw it but she was such a strong woman she never let anything bug her. She is and will forever be my idol and I think of her examples daily. She was the most humble and most loving person I've ever known and I will always be grateful that I will see her one day.
I hope to one day be half the woman she was so kind and humble and loved everyone. I am proud of my lineage and the examples in my life whom I can follow. I am so grateful for my Mom and her sisters they are all truly my mothers. I am also grateful for my 2nd Mom my aunty Mele I think all these mother figures have helped mold me into who I am today. I am a strong woman because of all these people and I hope to one day pay it forward and become a mother or a grandmother to someone one day.
I know I don't have any children now but for some reason my heart feels at ease. I don't feel that emptiness I once felt, I feel content and have faith that Heavenly Father has his own timing and that emptiness I've always felt will be filled soon. So much to be grateful for there is no room for anything else.
We just recently had general conference and it was exactly what I needed I feel rejuvenated and awake. This general conference I had a wonderful experience. I fell asleep during conference (I know nothing to brag about lol) but I had such a wonderful dream. My grandma Mafi came to me in my dream and I hugged her it felt so real I thought I died or something lol. It was so nice to feel her and see her I really needed to see her. My grandmother passed away from Cancer and the summer before she passed away before her final days. I spent the entire summer taking care of her I can remember my bed right in her room. People started to come visit her and spend time with her. I helped her with whatever she needed. I remember every night before she slept I would comb her hair and braid it for her. I would want to cry cause a lot of her hair would fall out she saw it but she was such a strong woman she never let anything bug her. She is and will forever be my idol and I think of her examples daily. She was the most humble and most loving person I've ever known and I will always be grateful that I will see her one day.
I hope to one day be half the woman she was so kind and humble and loved everyone. I am proud of my lineage and the examples in my life whom I can follow. I am so grateful for my Mom and her sisters they are all truly my mothers. I am also grateful for my 2nd Mom my aunty Mele I think all these mother figures have helped mold me into who I am today. I am a strong woman because of all these people and I hope to one day pay it forward and become a mother or a grandmother to someone one day.
I know I don't have any children now but for some reason my heart feels at ease. I don't feel that emptiness I once felt, I feel content and have faith that Heavenly Father has his own timing and that emptiness I've always felt will be filled soon. So much to be grateful for there is no room for anything else.
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