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Hmmm it's been forever since I've been on here!!...
Well just a recap of everything the past few months have been just crazy...A few months ago I was totally depressed especially about the whole adoption thing not working out. I even bore my testimony about my feelings about not having any kids. Yes I expressed my feelings about "Mothers Day" being the worst day for me because I see everyone celebrating and I cannot(I was real emotional & yes I was crying hecka UGLY). After I bore my testimony Brother Olive got up and bore his testimony he shared that he himself wonders why people who want to bare children can't and why some people who shouldn't have kids are blessed with kids.
It seriously made me take a step back and just except it. Yes I still want to be blessed with children one day but maybe if I don't focus on it maybe it will just happen. I still can't believe I got up and shared my feelings with my ward members. But I honestly left everything that hurt me up at that podium. I seriously felt like I bore my soul to my ward members and my husband (Lets just say he was crying from his seat). After sacrament I felt the love from everyone in our ward. I know I'm not the only one going thru this and I know there are bigger problems that others are going thru but I am happy that I have the support of my ward members.
Besides my baby dilemma...Life has been surprisingly coming together I don't know I just feel like everything we needed has been coming together in every other department. We finally have the right people in our lives finally other friends who have the same standards as us. It seriously helps to have friends who are true friends I don't know I guess having bad friends really helps you figure out the real ones. My friends at church are blessing and who would have thought I would enjoy being a visiting teacher...Shocker! The things I would try to get out of is seriously fun...I truly enjoy visiting with the sisters I visit I truly see the blessings. My husband and I had a temple date just this past week and it makes such a huge difference. I know it's something we must continue to do.
All in All things have been somehow falling into place. I guess if you truly just put all your trust in the Lord things really do just fall into place!. My testimony has really grown just this year alone...excited for the rest of the year...
Plus my husbands birthday is coming up trying to come up with something fun for us to do. Plus all these graduations coming up we are just seriously so busy but all I can say is "Life is Good". Just wanted to take a few minutes to remember everything I feel at this moment. I feel like we have nowhere to go but "UP". I have a good feeling about this year I know it will be a good one...=)
Well just a recap of everything the past few months have been just crazy...A few months ago I was totally depressed especially about the whole adoption thing not working out. I even bore my testimony about my feelings about not having any kids. Yes I expressed my feelings about "Mothers Day" being the worst day for me because I see everyone celebrating and I cannot(I was real emotional & yes I was crying hecka UGLY). After I bore my testimony Brother Olive got up and bore his testimony he shared that he himself wonders why people who want to bare children can't and why some people who shouldn't have kids are blessed with kids.
It seriously made me take a step back and just except it. Yes I still want to be blessed with children one day but maybe if I don't focus on it maybe it will just happen. I still can't believe I got up and shared my feelings with my ward members. But I honestly left everything that hurt me up at that podium. I seriously felt like I bore my soul to my ward members and my husband (Lets just say he was crying from his seat). After sacrament I felt the love from everyone in our ward. I know I'm not the only one going thru this and I know there are bigger problems that others are going thru but I am happy that I have the support of my ward members.
Besides my baby dilemma...Life has been surprisingly coming together I don't know I just feel like everything we needed has been coming together in every other department. We finally have the right people in our lives finally other friends who have the same standards as us. It seriously helps to have friends who are true friends I don't know I guess having bad friends really helps you figure out the real ones. My friends at church are blessing and who would have thought I would enjoy being a visiting teacher...Shocker! The things I would try to get out of is seriously fun...I truly enjoy visiting with the sisters I visit I truly see the blessings. My husband and I had a temple date just this past week and it makes such a huge difference. I know it's something we must continue to do.
All in All things have been somehow falling into place. I guess if you truly just put all your trust in the Lord things really do just fall into place!. My testimony has really grown just this year alone...excited for the rest of the year...
Plus my husbands birthday is coming up trying to come up with something fun for us to do. Plus all these graduations coming up we are just seriously so busy but all I can say is "Life is Good". Just wanted to take a few minutes to remember everything I feel at this moment. I feel like we have nowhere to go but "UP". I have a good feeling about this year I know it will be a good one...=)
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