Maybe....Maybe Not..

Ok so I am just wide awake at 5am in the morning with so many things on my mind. So I guess I've been thinking about other things lately like going back to school and finding a better job. Plus my goals to lose weight and just be spiritually fit that I really haven't been thinking much of my biggest hope,dream,wish "To have a baby". It's kind of hilarious that yesterday after I had the chills from being sick I spent majority of my morning throwing up (which I forgot to mention in my last blog) my husband calls to check on me and I tell him I've been throwing up. He suddenly thinks I'm pregnant lol (morning sickness) so he thinks. I've been on birth control last month and I just decided to go off it and see if my annoying irregular period has changed a little. It's crazy cause normally I'm always spotting (TMI) but my period has been pretty normal with no signs of spotting or anything out of the ordinary.

I really hate getting excited especially just to see that negative sign on a pregnancy test. My husband and I have been thru to many false alarms that I can't help but think it will never happen. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that just maybe it might really happen. It's just funny me that my husband has high hopes. I don't know I just haven't been so baby crazy lately. But if I don't have my period soon I just might have to take a pregnancy test but I think I will prolong that test till I really think this time is different.

Plus our friends in Tahiti Marieanne and Roland (the family who is blessing us with a child) yes letting us adopt. I think she is officially pregnant they will find out in a few days I am still excited with us planning to adopt but I am still hoping to one day have a child of our own just so I can go thru the experience but if it doesn't happen I will still be happy.

I just keep telling myself if it's meant to happen it will. If not will just be like the celebrities and adopt lots of babies lol...ok I need to sleep now before my husband goes crazy telling me sleep lol....;)