I try.

So my life lately has been so crazy. I'm still thinking I'm pregnant but like I said I don't want to Jinx myself and get my husband excited for nothing so i'm just keeping it to myself.

This week I have been so dissapointed in myself. I have a cousin who I was so close too we did everything together till we had a huge falling out. I honestly wish things could just go back to the way things use to be. I seriously saw her as my sister and she was my closest family I had out here. I feel like I try my best to be good to everyone around me and shes the first person who has ever turned so many people against me. Even though I know things will never between us I just ignore all the drama and text her as if nothing ever happend. My husband is probably right she will never change but even if things don't go back to the way it was atleast I can say I tried. I know i'm to nice .It's my biggest strength but it is one of my biggest weakness as well. I am a very forgiving person you could do something to me but I will still love you no matter what. It bugs the hell out of my family especially when it comes to this cousin of mines. But hopefully one day she will realize she can't keep doing that to people. Especially people who care about her