Time to get Baby Ready

Even though this week was so busy at work when my uncle asked if I could babysit I was so excited. Our families don't live near so it's been forever since i've had to babysit. I watched my 1yr old cousin Kitione and my 6yr old cousin Lusi. My husband thought I wouldn't last chasing him around and especially up and down the stairs. I actually had so much fun and it just made me realize what a huge responsiblity it is to have a baby. It was crazy had to make sure Kiti was safe the whole time he was over. It made me realize how not baby proof my house is. We are so use to it just being us and when he started climbing up by our TV and banging his hands on it. It made me realize we need to change alot of things around in our house. Especially all the hanging lights I love that I found at the yard sale for a $1 and DI that I always get compliments on need to be moved once I have a baby. It was a very crazy night we played till and stayed up till 1am in the morning I tried everything to make him sleep then suddenly he got tired and came and slept next to me he was so cute.

We have been married for 3 yrs almost 4 & we are so use to it just being us. Things like our work schedule and babysitters are just now starting to scare me lol.

I am getting so excited about this October and next month cause we will most likely find out the sex of the baby. I've also have been looking around at baby furniture and baby things it's so exciting. It's all I think about "Pinterest" is starting to get me baby crazy.

Also just the questions from my Sister and Mom about baby showers and baby blessing dates. They are so excited for me. I just don't know what to think about a baby shower to me it's for mothers who go thru pregnancy. I feel like i'm not worthy enough to have a baby shower and i've never been to a shower for someone who has adopted a baby. My sister is planning her own little thing but I keep telling her I would feel uncomfortable if I had one. But I know she will come up with something unique and something that won't make me feel awkward.

We will just be grateful to finally have our own baby. So while preparing for the arrival of our baby. I still don't know what's going on with me. I honestly think I am not pregnant now it's just my head wishing to be. But I will schedule a apointment soon just to find out what's happening. I know I need to have faith and maybe it will happen one day. Even if I go just to find out it's another negative. I will just be grateful that I am being blessed with a baby anyway.

We are so excited for parenthood and I hope and pray we will be great parents.